A Positive Mess – My Missed Miscarriage Story

I had never heard the term “missed miscarriage” until the words came out of my ob/gyn’s mouth. It was a Thursday, I was in my 9th week of pregnancy, and I’d just had an ultrasound that revealed sad news. There was no heartbeat. I should have miscarried. Possibly even many weeks earlier… but my body didn’t get the message. It kept right on increasing my HCG, my boobs, and my excitement. It was a cruel trick.

My sleepy husband and cutie pie son on Father’s day, with the hoodie we would eventually use to reveal our news…

A little backstory. I am lucky to be mommy to (biased parent warning) the cutest little 4-year-old in the world. And he was a total surprise! But there is no doubt that he was right on time. With my first pregnancy, I didn’t even know I was pregnant until about 8 weeks. I mistook implantation bleeding along with a small placental tear for a light period, and it wasn’t until the nonstop nausea started that I got suspicious. So, at that very first visit, just days after learning I was pregnant, I got to hear his little heartbeat, and take home a picture that looked like a peanut inside of an oval. A surprise pregnancy came with it’s own set of hurdles, but we were very lucky we got to skip all of the fertility stress that first time around. Our baby was healthy and perfect.

Since almost the moment our son came into the world, my husband and I have known we want to give him a sibling. For a bunch of reasons (the most recent delay being travel to dang Zika regions!), we chose to wait a while between kiddos. But the thing is, I suffer from this thing called “advanced maternal age,” and apparently my condition is only getting worse!? So we figured we better get on it. This past February I had the goalie pulled, we received the most surprising box of swag ever – a box of ovulation and pregnancy tests from Clearblue (no pressure! But also…thank you!), and got to trying.

Our awesome Clearblue goodies!

Having never “tried” before, I thought it would be fun! Oh, boy. Anyone who has been through this knows it is NOT. It was stressful almost immediately. I will admit I had an argument with a digital ovulation stick that claimed I was having a “low fertility” day. It was very one-sided. I said some things I shouldn’t have. But it turns out I just started testing too late in my cycle, and we made up the very next day when said stick showed “peak.” I told my husband to COME HOME NOW in a scary voice. And just a couple weeks later I saw a very faint line pop up next to the control. I was pregnant!

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Father’s Day Cheat Sheet – Straight from a DAD!

darth vader toasterFather’s day is almost upon us! We’ve got a little over a week to figure out something awesome for the men in our lives…

I think we can all agree to go with something he WANTS, not something he NEEDS, right? I realize his socks may have morphed into yoga-toe socks… or your kid has used scotch tape to patch a hole in his underwear… but save that stuff for your next Target run, and get him something FUN.

I could give you ideas for days, but what better place to get advice than straight from the source!? Well, we are in lucky, cause my husband put together a CHEAT SHEET! A definitive guide to what guys REALLY want for Father’s Day, straight from the hubby’s mouth…er…fingertips…

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Kickass SPF for your FACE!

EltaSince I recently recommended a sunscreen that I am currently loving, I thought I would add another sun protection product… daily spf for your FACE! It’s another tricky one. You don’t want it to be thick or greasy, it needs to go on easily, and get well absorbed, so that you can go about putting makeup on like it was never there! Well here you go: Elta UV Clear. It’s got SPF 46, is oil-free, it goes on super light, and you will LOVE it. This recommendation was straight from my dermatologist, due to it’s safe ingredients and excellent coverage. She advised me to add it to my daily skin care regimen and I took that advice to heart- I’ve used it every day for the past 2 years, and I am hooked! It has worked for me not only on a day-to-day basis, but on vacation when I am out on the beach in the blazing sun all day. There is also a tinted version (that I own as well), for days when I want to go makeup-free, but still want a little something to even out my skin tone.

Rolling is Underrated!

We’re currently living in a furnished sublet with most of our stuff in storage, so we’ve gotten creative about toys and activities for our kiddo. Well, as it turns, for all the time and money we’ve spent finding cool things to do that he will enjoy, his current fave is right outside and totally free….

I highly recommend doing this – he LOVED it, and had a REALLY good nap after all that hiking back uphill!

P.S. He calls this set of hills the “booty hills,” cause….well he’s right, they look like a booty.

My Toddler Loves to Dance to Justin Timberlake

I have to admit, I have a problem with dancing… I grew up dancing, and while I can’t say that my skills were worth anything greater than a few “gold metals” that cost a tiny fraction of the entry fees (and thousands of rhinestones) for those dance competitions, I still LOVE to dance. I can’t help myself. If I hear a good song I start to move, even if I’m in public.

When I became a mom, I was worried I would end up embarrassing my son with my spontaneous boogieing …but as it turns out, he is IN. It helps that I have a super cool husband who not only tolerates it, but is often the instigator. Dance parties are a regular thing at our house. We even have these awesome bluetooth lightbulb speakers – the lights actually change colors and “dance” to the rhythm of the music. Yep. We are nerds. But we have a LOT of fun.

When I first heard Justin Timberlake’s new song “Can’t Stop the Feeling” I downloaded it immediately. I LOVE JT, and finding out that my (then future) husband was known to get down to “Sexy Back,” and then seeing it in person, is definitely part of what made me fall head over heels for him.. So it’s only appropriate that the other love of my life should have his own JT theme song!

So here is my 2-year-old, who just Can’t Stop the Feeling!

And…we’re walking! Flashback to Baby’s First Steps.

At 18 months, my child is climbing EVERYTHING. At any given moment I will find him standing on the entertainment center, scaling a bookshelf, or balancing on top of our amazon packages…

I was remembering the good ole days when I could lay him on a mat, and would just stay put! smile emoticon But it got me thinking about this proud moment – we caught his first steps on camera!

Did you catch any milestone moments on camera?? Please share!!